Have you ever wondered what "Rudolph the Red-nosed Reindeer" would sound like to the tune of Nirvana's "Smells Like Teen Spirit"? I had the pleasure of hearing it last night at the party. It was hysterical, and fit perfectly (go Kyle!). Just goes to show what Star Trek boys are capable of thinking up. And I had eggnog! Woo!
I give my Stravinsky presentation in less than a half an hour. I'm fairly confident it'll go all right, I'm just making myself nervous right beforehand. Typical me.
Is it that *all* the people from WS are having difficulty making the high school-college transition? Cause I swear, it seems no one here is...then again, a lot of high schoolers were dying to get out of their school, and I was actually kinda sad about it. Maybe we were just special in that we came in the beginning, when everything was so small and we were basically it. We didn't go to a typical high school, and maybe we made some of our lasting friends there instead of here, thereby making the transition all the more difficult. Don't get me wrong, there are some cool people here, people who invited me to sit down and gave me hugs when I got to the party, but it's somehow not the same. Or maybe I'm just in a funny mood. :) I want Checkers. Checkers cures everything. :)
lol I just realized how much I talk about food on this thing. I promise, I have not gotten the Freshman 15, and food is not the center of my life...it just seems that way.
I want to make a quiz, but don't know what to make it about. Any suggestions anyone?
-jill

Ok, I don't have English tomorrow, so I will write more then, and only a little bit now cause I'm way tired.
First, I would like to say THANK YOU to Jacob for making my logo, and making my page look the same in both browsers. That had been driving me crazy.
Then, I would like to say THANK YOU to Greg for making the Stravinsky CD. Music of the Moment: The Infernal Dance. And for coming out to see me, and staying just to essentially talk and snuggle.
I had fun at the Christmas party. And I got a calendar with kittens on it. I just know I'm gonna be like Katie, with like twelve calendars.
Well, that's all my brain can handle right now.
Love yall
-jill

hmm

"I am NOT a dancin chicken!" --Greg
"Dance, chicken, dance!" --Me

Hello all!
A bunch of good stuff has happened lately, and one bad thing, so let me get that out of the way first:
Pinehurst was doing this Secret Santa thing, and I really wanted to do that, and you had to respond to the email by 10 pm Wed, and I responded at like 11am Wed, but apparently the email took forever to get there cause I got an email saying, sorry, you didnt make the deadline and everyone has their santas and I miss out. This reminds me of that Spirit Bag thing last year. Sigh.
But on to better things!
Greg wasn't able to come over last night, but he offered to come over tonight and take me to a movie. However, I am being good and am going to actually do my Stravinsky project that is due, um, tomorrow. But he's still going to come over so I can take a break and all that good stuff. This makes me happy. What adds to this happiness is that I didn't have anything to do in work study today, so I'm home and can get like an hour an a half headstart on this, so maybe I'll be done and can spend even more time. Cause there's a Christmas party tonight too.
I took my Sightsinging and Keyboarding finals today. I don't know exactly what I got on Sightsinging, but I did well, and I got a 96 in piano! Woo!
I talked to Josh through the talk option on AIM. Well, first I talked to my dad on it, and then Josh. It was fun. Maybe a little redundant since he lives locally and we both have phones, but fun.
The most hilarious episode of Blind Date was on the other night. This one guy - I'll call him Johnny Melons - has to be the most obnoxious person on the face of the planet. To make things better, the next day I talked to Saul and he had seen it too. Yes, I know they have the same channels in New York, but I still found it novel.
Music of the Moment: The Harry Potter Prologue. Good stuff. And as usual, the horn part sounds fun.
And, finally: Looks like I have a roommate! Her name is Michelle, she seems very nice, a theater major but not a stupid Drama Person, and we have very similar sleep schedules. She moves in the week after next, and I have to move all my furniture around before then, so I may be recruiting all you big strong men. And women. :) Cause, Jackie, I can't reach all my Halloween decorations to get them down! Help!
If I get everything done really, really, fast, I might even have time for a shower before Greg gets here! So what am I doin here?!
love yall
-jill

"Don't be afraid of Dr. LeRoy. You just have to force yourself to talk to him, and find that under his caustic, dry exterior lies...a cold and selfish man." --Aaron, the cello guy

I seem to be writing a lot today.
Here's something that I've been thinking about. I keep reading stuff about how people have led "charmed lives" and now they're questioning their values, place in life, etc. Is it possible to do the opposite? I would like to believe I've led an easy life, and in many respects I think I have, but not like a lot of other people. So I was intelligent. I never truly believed I was. I might be smart, get the high standardized test scores, but I wasn't one of the "gifted" people - and even though I knew I could be, it was just a matter of my parent's choice, I still had the mindset that I wasn't as good as "those" people. I played in band, but I wasn't a prodigy. I wasn't truly "special" in anything. I had boyfriends, but I wasn't the "pretty" one. I always had friends, but I never felt people were drawn to me as they are to some people. My family didn't really have much money, so stuff like that didn't come easy. I was just kinda there. And to me, living a charmed life would be the cul-de-sac dream. It was better than the people I knew who lived in trailers. I wanted to be the stereotypical suburban mom when I grew up.
Now I'm not so sure.
I think it started a few years ago. I was talking to Greg before we started going out, and I was saying how I'd always wanted to go to London, and he was basically like, "So go". And that sounds simple enough, but it really made me think. Then I think the friend shift partly added to things. Suddenly I was hanging out with people more like me, but they had the confidence in their abilities that I lacked. Arrogance? Most definitely. But it was nice. It was not, "I'm better than you," but rather, "we're better than everyone! God, can't you see that?" And it rubbed off, a bit. I actually got good grades, not cause I was studying with them or anything but...I really have no idea why. I guess I just started using my brain (I know, I'm asking for jokes). The only regret I have is that I started so late...otherwise, maybe I would be at Columbia now. But still, look at where I did wind up. Who would've guessed? And (knock on wood) I think I'm going to get straight A's this semester. And now, hey, I think about moving to London, not just visiting. Granted, I'm still very insecure. But it's as if in the past year or so, my eyes have been opened to the stuff I can do. It's pretty freaking cool.

All right, first things first.
I don't know when I'm going back to Tennessee. I have finals next week mostly, and I have to be out my dorm by noon on the 12th. My mom's coming down to see the huge 3-day Christmas thing, and she was gonna rent a hotel room and shop a little down here, since Tennessee doesn't have all that much. However, since the Xmas thing is the 7th 8th and 9th, I don't know how much longer after that she's gonna want to stay and pay for a room and all that. So, hmm, did thar answer any questions?
I completely agree with what Jen has been saying, and Alan, and Drew, and Kari, Annie even, etc. College so far has not proven to be the *best* thing in my life. Now don't get me wrong, I don't think I could go back to high school, there are some benefits to this. But I'm homesick, without a home to return to. It ticks me off to no end that I never get to see my old friends when they visit cause I'm always in Tennessee. I have some ok friends here, but nothing like WS. And Jen, that thing about randomly knocking on people's doors? Me too. As you can tell, most of my free time is spent on this thing. Or talking to Greg, or Katie, or Jackie on the phone. But it's strange. I always got teased because I hated being alone, can't stand it, and I'm alone so much here. I don't even have a roommate to break the monotony. And everyone else seems to have already found a...clique. Oh well. On to happier things:
At some point, maybe after finals, I have decided I'm going to actually make a web page. At least something with pictures, cause I like seeing everyone else's home pages, and like seeing what people refer to, etc. Did that just make sense? Oh well.
Other happy news: Greg is coming to bring me the CD he burned today. I'll probly only see him a sec, and I have no idea when he's gonna show up, cause he has bring it when he has spare time at work. But I'm still excited. :) And I can give him the pictures to look at or something.
Ok, I have to get goin to class.
-jill

Ok, I'm feeling silly.
I saw Greg for the first time since I got back today, and, well, it was really really good. So good, that it's freaking me out. I don't know how to put it. I didn't get grumpy, I felt incredibly happy, every little thing made me feel all warm and fuzzy. So for those of you who know how things have been lately, maybe you can understand. It was like, such a good day that my old paranoia about happiness not being meant to last came back. And I know that giving in to my old depressing feelings is a pretty sure way to make sure that what I'm afraid of really does happen, so I'm trying to keep it all together. But, I don't know....I'm in a snuggly mood, and I missed part of Roswell walking him out to his car, so maybe I'll watch it again. Of course, that might not be the best thing to push back my fears. My favorite couple on that show broke up tonight. Yes, I know it's just a show. But it reminded me of me, some aspects. And so I'm in mourning.
I'm also in mourning for Jacob's car. But I also have hope that everything will work out. :) After all, I found the fitted cloud sheet. (Don't ask, let's just say the impossible has been occurring lately.)
I read most people's blogs daily, and some people haven't updated since like the second week of November. This may not seem very long, but for those of us who have an almost soap-opera-esque attachment, well, it's been ages. We want updates! And comments! And updated pictures! And, oh, darn it, I forgot to show Greg those pictures I got developed. Maybe tomorrow....and that's the other reason I'm happy, he's burning Firebird on a CD for me. As some of us know, this is monumental. See why this is scary?
I want to see at least some people before I go back to Tennessee. So everyone, get down here soon! And leave comments please...it makes me feel special. ^_^
love yall
-jill

I'm sitting here in work study, sitting by the phone on the off chance that it might ring. Yes, that's all I have to do today. But hey, I'm getting paid, albeit a very small amount, but I've only been doing a small amount of work, so go figure. One more hour to go before choir.
I'm sitting here doing nothing now, but I know in just a few days finals will cause me to melt down. I can feel it coming. Not good. Not to mention juries. Now that's scary.
I just found out yesterday that I have *one* loyal reader that I didn't even know read this. ^_^ I now feel all warm and fuzzy. Jackie brightened my day. :)
If all my finals are next week, maybe I can find a way to visit WS one day. I'll have to see.
Jen, I totally agree with your dieting woes. I hear ya, sister...I do not want to get freshman 15. :P When I was in Tennessee, everyone teased me and said I lost weight instead of gaining, but with every Mounds bar, I swear I can feel a Mound right in my middle. :) And of course, I'm saying this as I gulp Cherry Coke. No will power at all. Ok, back to staring at the phone, and maybe reading everyone's blog. :)
love yall
-jill

My first class is at 9:30. I got up at 7 to do homework, take a shower, spend a half an hour straightening my hair (which does look nice now :) and clean my room. Why didn't I do the stuff besides homework later, you ask? Cause Greg's coming over right after choir. Yes, once again, this is all about a guy. Sigh. Good thing I like him so much. I've now become one of the girls I loathed, who would get up at like 4 in high school to do their makeup. Still, I don't feel too bad - Greg was thinking out loud last night, and he was scheduling time before his classes to get up and play Dreamcast. I guess it's all in the priorities.

I've decided I panic too much. And I hate power-outs.

Ok, so my plan to get all my ickiness out before talking to Greg didn't really work. Buuut, he made me feel a whole lot better, just by bein him. So he gets warm fuzzy applause. ^_^ I was thinking about friends lately, and concluded that I have some exceptionally good friends. Everyone keeps talking about weddings lately, and I was thinking how (years from now) at my wedding, I would probably invite some of the same people. :) Maybe.
Ali said something recently about people at Stetson being not as random as us. It's like that here too, only here people don't have sarcastic senses of humor. I'll say something that's only semi-funny, and people will think it's hilarious. And it's not. Really. I mean, i suppose it could be partly me. Maybe I could be developing some natural snappy wit of my own.
But I doubt it.

My neck hurts. Jacob said he'd be nice enough to make me a pretty logo for my blog, and I said ok, let me find a cute picture of a sheep, and do you know I've been looking for like an hour and I can't find one. Maybe I'll just let Jacob not use pictures, just make the logo all bubbly or something. Arrgggh.
I got some pictures developed; theres some of my dorm before everything got moved around, some of a band practice (not orchestra; the other kind, the Mikaus kind) some of Halloween, and some of a night at Katie's. Oh, and decorating my room before the party. This is all on one roll, mind you, so there isn't very much of each subject. Maybe I will figure out a way to scan these and put them on my nonexistant webpage.
I'm so upset that I missed seeing everyone and apparently missed out on bowling. Sigh. I can see this will be the story of my life. And to top off my misery, when I saw Harry Potter, they didn't show the Ep II trailer. Yes, I've seen it on my laptop, but it's only a few inches big. :(
I realize I'm having a whiny day, and I'm sorry. I figure, I really missed Greg over the break, I haven't talked to him yet, so I want to vent my frustrations now so that when I do talk I'll be all happy again. So, one more frustration, and this may be petty, but deal: We won't get to use our Christmas decorations. Everyone's still at my dad's so we're gonna have their tree and ornaments and everything, and while I suppose I should be happy that I'll have some semblance of a Christmas at all, it's just, kinda, not the same. It's like, what's the use of getting homesick when you don't have a home?
One good thing, tho; Melissa, my sister, got me a teeny tiny tree with teeny tiny ornaments and teeny tiny lights that I will be getting in the mail. So at least here I will have my own special Christmas tree.
I think it's time for food.
-jill

All right, so I'm home. I tried to post on this thing the entire time I was in Tennessee, but my dad has a stupid computer...Thanksgiving was pretty fun, but had its ups and downs, as is typical when you throw so many people in one house. Juries are coming up, and I'm petrified. I'm not as worried about my other finals, though I do need to work on this Stravinsky project that's due on Friday. Saw Harry Potter; cute, cute. I want to go see it with Greg now too. I can't believe I missed TJ :( *sniff* but maybe I'll get to see him over Christmas, or maybe spring break. Well, I have to run to theory, so I'll just have to throw in more detail later.

Ok, everyone congratulate me....it's only 4 o clock an while I do have to do a Works Cited page and wait for Becky to get back and borrow her book so I can get 3 specific quotes, I'm essentially done with my paper! Woo! The excitement...the happiness...this just might call for some ice cream.

Everybody cheer! I'm on page 4 of what is supposed to be at least a 6 page paper, and it's only 1:20! And now I'm going to go get some lunch.

Ok, so it's tomorrow. I need to start writing this paper. And I'm putting it off to update my blog. *bad Jill* I was reading this one post about nicknames and stuff, and it occurred to me actually the other day that no matter how I'm introduced, people always wind up calling me Jill. Don't get me wrong, that's not a bad thing. I used to be all, oh, the name Jill is so plain, call me Jillian kick. And maybe it is. But the people closest to me call me Jill, and because of that I can stand everyone else calling me that too. Anyways, at my dorm we have our names on our doors, and they change every so often depending on the season. Like right now mine's on a turkey. Sort of like when we were in elementary school and every month the calendar would have a different counting system, like shamrocks for march. It's cute. Anyways, when I first moved in my name was on a sun and it was Jillian. By the time the pumpkin went up, it was Jill. Brass ensemble people call me Jill. Orchestra people call me Jillian. Star Trek people call me Jill. My englsih class calls me Jillian. But in all these situations I've been introduced as Jillian. Maybe I'm reading into this too much. But invariably, as people become friends they switch to Jill. I suppose that's nice. :)
Oh, and Drew, I finally saw The Godfather. I liked it a lot, actually. Next on the list is Godfather II, but I still have to finish watching Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon, and none of that is gonna get done til I get back from Tennessee. I leave Tuesday afternoon *sniff*. Don't get me wrong, I love my family and go up to Tennessee every Thanksgiving and it'll be fun, but everyone's coming down now! ARRGGHH. And I don't know how long I'm gonna be here for Christmas Break. Sigh.
I didn't go to band practice and I said that would be better so I can type my paper, but I can't make myself do it. I have this nice Cosmo that would love to be read...but no, I must type. So if anyone sees me online today, IM me and tell me to write my paper. I think I'm going to need the extra motivation.
-jill

Tomorrow, I promise, I will write the paper.

Ok, I might be the only person who finds this funny, but Greg did not know there are sheep on my bed. For those of you who have seen my room, you know how that is impossible. He only remembers clouds. Clouds with little faces and feet and a tail, he ca't recall. Sigh. Does this mean he was just blinded by brilliance of the presence that is me? Or that his memory sucks? It has to be the former, cause later that night we established that his memory does not suck at all (darn) so it must just be that my radiance obscures all. I can live with that. But the rest of you, you all remember the sheep, right?

woo! I have actually done a bit of work on my own on this thing!

So when did it suddenly switch from fall to winter? This morning it definitely smelled like winter, as it should, since it's halfway through November, but still, winter has crept up on me.
I totally intended that when my classes were over today I was going to sleep until at least 5 and make up for some of the sleep I've been missing. After all, my immune system seems to be weakened and all, especially since I stopped drinking orange juice when I had a sore throat and the acidity hurt (though drinking orange juice at all was an accomplishment for me). But, as usually happens, now I'm all awake and don't want to sleep the afternoon away. I'm thinking, maybe I will go to the C-store and get some ice cream, and then get all snuggly and watch the Cutting Edge (a very winterish movie). We'll see; usually my plans get all fumbled, but that's the plan so far. And at some point I want to take another shower, cause my hair smells like smoke. Yuck.
On MTV there's this interview with the people from the Harry Potter movie. The kid that plays Harry Potter looks much less dorky without the glasses. In fact, I think if I were twelve, I'd think he was cute, so I'm predicting he'll be the next big thing in Bop. If they still have Bop. I'm not sure.
I don't know why Therenody pieces have to be so assaulting. Well, yes I do, but still. Ok, the word therenody basically means in memory of. So a few weeks ago, we listen to this piece by Penderecki called Therenody for the Victims of Hiroshima. It basically sounds like a traffic jam, it's horrifically assaulting on your ears but really sticks with you. I think it's the closest possible way you could portray a bomb in music. So anyway, today we listened to Black Angels, a therenody for Vietnam by Crumb, and well, it was just as scary. The first movement is something about insects and it really sounds like it too, with an X-Files-ish sound. Very scary. And my head still feels funny from it.
Music of the moment, literally: Whenever, Wherever by Shakira. It's on MTV.
Today we had a listening test, and well, I didn't do too well, but anyways, theres this Rachmaninov symphony and one of the movements is used in the movie Center Stage. So Ryan, one of my peer mentors, comes in today and says the Center Stage song is the second movement. I say it's the third. This discrepancy is important, since we get tested on this. He claims he just saw the movie last night, blah blah, and then we get tested and the last question is that song. DUM DUM DUM. Dilemma. :/
Turns out I was right and it was the third movement, so I got it right...and so did Ryan. Apparently he trusted me over his own judgement, and it paid off, of course. :) That made me happy.
Another thing that made me happy was Drew's comment to my really long entry. To answer your question, Drew, I think I'm becoming more confident. Not everyone knows this, but I had to change the way I play, and in effect have to learn how to play all over again. It's incredibly frustrating, but my range is improving! Perhaps this will only make sense to Axel, but I can now play as low as the A at the bottom of the bass clef, and as high as the Eb on the top space of the treble clef. Woo! And my teacher thinks I can get as high as a really-good sounding G by the end of this term, and a C (!) above the staff by the end of spring. That is the full range of a french horn, from the G on the bottom line of the bass clef to the C above the treble clef. I'm all excited. :)
ok, the ice cream is really calling my name, so I'll write later.
love yall
-jill

music of the moment - Live (duh, it's still in my head)
particular song in my head - a mush of Lightning Crashes, Dolphin's Cry and Imagine
Moby's still in my cd player tho
and being as I have a listening test in a few hours, I'd better fit some Ravel in there too somehow.

Woo!
I just got back from the Live concert, and man, was it fun. Thankfully it was not all acoustic, as an article in the Sentinel said. Concerts still wig me out, like, I'm in the room with the band i hear on the radio. The whole Trent Reznor thiing still gets to me. So anyways, normal concert setup, but there were some touching bits, like a cover of "Imagine". Also, I think I have even more respect for the lead singer (ed?)'s voice, cause in concert it was just as good, if not better. Probly better. There were only two less than upsides that I can think of offhand: there was this one couple that was making out, well no, more like dirty dancing like right next to us, kept bumpin in and obscuring vision and they weren't even looking at the band! but thankfully they left. The other thing is that I smell like at least 3 different kinds of smoke, and I was sick like a week ago but still coughin a little, and it made me cough all the way home. But other than that I had a lot of fun. I was worried about Greg drivin home so late and tired, but he just called, so he's ok, so I'm happy now, and still eating my very late dinner of Subway. I hadn't eaten since noon, and the heat and the smoke was not a good combo, but I'm good now! And, oh yes, class tomorrow. Hmmm. Guess I'd better go read everybody else's blogs, and head for bed. And good luck to Greg tomorrow!
love yall
-jill

Looks like my plans have changed for this afternoon. I took down most of my Halloween decorations, and was just about to get in the shower when the phone rang, and it was Greg, asking if he could come over early. Now, for those of us who know Greg, we know that spontenaity is not something that comes often; he likes things planned. I actually have butterflies in my stomach, i think. Too funny. Anyways, he'll be here soon, so I'd better go.
love yall
-jill

hmmmm

Ok, I've decided: the name has to change. Sorry Josh, but I just didn't put enough thought into that title. So does anyone have any ideas?
Everyone's gettin together for Thanksgiving and I'm going to Tennessee. :( I know, I know, I could see Josh any day, since he sort of lives here, but for whatever reason, I haven't. And I would like to see everyone else who's coming home too. And see Absent's show. Sigh.
It's only almost 4, but it feels much later. It's a very gray sort of day today, and I've done a bunch of stuff, so it feels like it should be 5 or 6. I'm even hungry already. Course, that might be also cause I had only a half a lunch a noon. But at any rate, I got a 98 on my piano quiz (and yes I realize on my away msg today I put paino; it wasn't intentional, but I think it was a Freudian slip) and I did, ehh, ok on my politics exam. I messed up for sure on a chart, but hopefully, I still got above a 90. Regardless, it's only 1/3 of my exam grade. The other exam I got a 104 on, and there's still going to be a take-home final, so I'm not too worried yet. Though, I was worried enough to get up and study at 7:30 this morning. :P
Becky's at paly rehearsal, and she has all the Atwood books in the library, so I can't work on my paper now. Thus, I think I will start taking down my Halloween decorations (finally) and take a nice looong shower and get ready for tonight. It was nice, I'd totally forgotten about it til I was walking home, and then it was like, "Oh!" So I'm happy.

My blog has undergone some changes, thanks to wonderful Greg. I only asked him to change the time counter thingy, and he's changed the color to purple (like I wanted) and some font stuff and even started linking to people. yes, I will learn how to do all this eventually, but it's nice to suddenly have it fixed now, and all cause of the sweetness of males (I'm including Josh too cause he made comments possible). Hopefully I will get a monkey picture on this sometime soon. Greg just told me he's a moron. I thought I'd get that in print. I want to go to the Absent show, but I'll be in Tennessee. :P I would've come to the Halloween one, too. Sigh. Saul made fun of my choice of classes. He also made fun of my last name. I'm so glad I put out a special message just for him yesterday. I'm not so sure how I feel about the title of this blog, so let me know what y'all think. ( i do have comments now) I also have a politics test tomorrow that I havent studied for. Yep, there went my head.
love yall
-jill

People can leave messages now, woo! Thank you Josh!
I just got back from my brass ensemble concert. It went pretty well. I had 4 or 5 solos, and I only messed up on one of them, but it wasn't a horrible messup. The rest of them went really well, better than they ever had in rehearsal. Too bad no one I knew was there to see them.

I have my schedule pretty much worked out. Hopefully I'll actually get all these classes; time will tell. Only thing that sucks is that I still have to take a PE, but ah well. Here's what my schedule will hopefully be:
Gender Images in Science Fiction
Theory II: Harmony w/Lab (Keyboarding and Sightsinging)
History of Jazz
Biology Aspects of Nutrition w/Lab
Aerobic Fitness: Dance
Plus horn lesson, piano lesson, horn ensemble, orchestra, choir, and brass ensemble. Hopefully my head will not explode.
After the concert tonight I'm supposed to get together with Becky and make actual progress on my English paper. Here's hoping.

Once again, I didn't accomplish nearly as much as I hoped to. But I did finish the Atwood book, at long last...much different from Surfacing, the other book by her that I've read. So tomorrow I get to pretty much study exclusively for my Politics test on Thursday, and then I get to play in my concert that I'm terribly nervous about, more so than even my orchestra concert last week. And Thursday afternoon I really need to crack down and work on this paper! Becky has been a godsend throughout this...she's the one who provided me a copy of the book when I couldn't get one, and since her paper is also on it, I don't have to search for reviews cause she beat me to it and checked everything out of the library already. Hmm, what else? My shows were on tonight, and I taped them (woo). I'm currently listening to my Phantom of the Opera CD, to the Entr'acte, a sort of mid-overture, to be played as the second half begins. If I were a professional ice skater, this would be very good music to use for a program - short program section, since it's only 2 and a half minutes. Ok, we've now seen who has read and seen too many ice skating books and movies. Sigh. Masquerade is a great song too. ^_^ I first learned some of the words when Greg was nice enough to find the libretto for me online, like a year and a half ago. :) Very like him.
Josh, you'll have to tell Mike that I've become friends with the Star Trek club here, much to my surprise. And I've met some people who are just as fanatical about it as you are about Star Wars. It's really quite funny. I've also found Magic the Gathering people here, who are very, very friendly...sometimes too friendly, but nice. Though I still refuse to play Magic again, they invite me to go do stuff, and one guy who we'll call "Chuck" was referred to as "cute" by Cara. Now that's interesting, since he's a throwback to the days of eyeliner, black nail polish and band T-shirts. But he's very nice too.
I'm seriously reconsidering my habit of reading blogs daily. Not all of them, but some I fear are unhealthy. I dunno, it's hard to put into words. Yknow, I'm not going to be all sappy and say, "I've changed so much, and it's all due to my wonderful boyfriend, blah blah.." because I would like to think that some progress has been made by me alone; I know for sure that some this summer was definitely me alone. Yet, I would be lying to say Greg didn't have a big hand in keeping me sane, if nothing else, because he's done more than his share of listening to my crap. Now, so has Katie, Drew, Casey, Jackie, Jacob, even TJ at some points. And Saul. Oh, before I forget:
Hello Saul. How are you? Saul is great, and a good friend, and instrumental in allaying my fears about relationships, and any single Jewish girl needs to consider him a catch.
There, that was Saul's special message, delivered as promised. :) At any rate, I've put so much work into changing me from, as it was once put, "the big bad outcast" into whatever I am now. Hopefully it's been a positive change;I know that even with my ups and downs, I'm much more satisfied on the whole than I ever used to be. I have real friends, who will be there if I need them, even offer their houses to me and my harp. :) And they witnessed this whole evolution to girly-girl, and took me however I am. Greg, more than most, knows exactly my faults, and so far has taken me for the most part however I am...including my indecisiveness tonight about this whole blog thing. Yep, I love him. That's incredibly odd for me to write, since I stopped keeping a diary a long time ago, but I figure I'm so up and down, I might as well write what I'm feeling. I told Greg I didn't want to be sappy, and he told me to write when I'm happy with him and rant when I'm not, and at least I'll have a record. Pretty good idea, all things considered. Well, this entry here is a pretty good indication as to the way I think and talk, or babble, more precisely. My mind goes off on tangents and I don't tend to make much of an effort to stop it. Should I be as candid as I am, knowing there's a slim chance random people will read this? Right now, I don't care. For example, I read Annie's blog, tho I didn't hang out with her much in high school, and I just find it terribly interesting, to see someone else's ups and downs, the way people think. Who knows, maybe someone thinks I'm terribly interesting. :) I suppose that would have to be a random person, huh, or one that just doesn't know me very well.
I'm listening to Moby. Good stuff; I made Greg get it for me for my birthday, but I don't listen to it nearly enough. If you have Moby, listen to it, and that should tell you what mood I'm in now.
Saul always has me read his thoughts on the world. Well, payback, boy. :)
Drew, if you want me to get reblogger so bad, tell me how. or Josh could do it, since it seems he can. :D
Jacob put stuff about me on his blog; it was exciting. It's always exciting to find yourself mentioned. (Denny Mike Melody Axel)
I think that about covers it.
I'm starting to doubt spelling and words look funny to me, so it must be time for bed.
love yall
-jill

Tonight has been a good night. I've gotten very little of my Atwood book read, but other than that...
I wonder if people are even reading this. Should i try that reblogger thing? It doesn't seem like anyone uses it. I know I don't.
I have to take a shower, arggh, it's such a big ordeal when you live in a dorm. Have to get everything together, can't forget anything, cause you could run back in a towel but you inevitably run into Pete or someone.
I haven't heard from Drew in days! All these visits from Gainesville and he doesn't even come see me? :( I'm wounded.
Tomorrow should prove to be an even more hectic day, and then the next one will be even more, and so on. Sigh. And next semester I go from having 24 credit hours to 26. I think I am truly crazy.
I hate it when I get defeated by logic...but it's ok if it makes me laugh.
People are linking to me! It's soooo exciting!
K, I definitely have to take a shower or I won't have time for anything else before bed, I'll talk later. Hopefully.
love y'all
-jill

"You have weird creatures in your yard."
"You had weird creatures too; Doug might not've told you..."
"No, you had rats in your yard."
"Have you ever seen hawks? What do you think they eat?"
"Ummm....small...creatures. I used to have hawks in my yard."
"Yes, and when one swooped down it was eating a rat."
"Gross!"

This isn't going to be a whole long sappy blog, but I just thought I'd say, Greg is currently making me laugh. And that's one of the reasons why I love him. I did get the book! woo! now I just have to find time to read it. Ok, I'm off to go get dinner before going to horn ensemble, so I'll try to write a little bit later.
-jill

I'm figuring I'll write as much as I can now, because I just went to the library and they didn't have The Handmaid's Tale, which I need to read so I can write my paper due the Wednesday before Thanksgiving, which is next Wednesday now. Yes, it's that time of year again, when my head falls off. Granted, it's not as bad as last year's poetry thing - at least the poetry thing was bad for me, I seem to remember Greg shrugging it off as usual - but it still creates unneeded stress before I go up to Tennessee. Today was John Williams day in Masterpieces of Music Lit, woohoo! so it inspired me to listen to Journey to the Island; and my laptop speakers are not as bad as I thought, at least for this moderate volume. I was thinking about how much things have changed in the past few years; I now own pink hair straightener stuff. And the clothes, well, we all know the difference there. As Katie said once, I'm finally a girly-girl again, and it's nice. And more than that, at times I think I'm finally getting a balance, and getting my head on straight - well, when it's not flying off because of evil papers. Oh, and in case Greg reads this before I talk to him, think you could put the Firebird Suite and maybe the Rite of Spring on a CD for my RCC project? Puh-leeeeze? I would need it on the 30th. And they're both by Stravinsky. I'm eating donuts for breakfast, woo woo :) And Dr. Pepper. I got into all sorts of bad habits when my family was here; I'm going to have to drink exclusively water for the next week and a half, to repair the damage. But, oh, sweet surrendering - to donuts. :) (Guess what song I'm listenin to now) It is so ridiculous that I have class when everyone has it off. Grrrr. But at least it's my favorite classes today, except for weightlifting, which is a neccessary evil. Ok, I'd better head to theory, and after that I'd better find some way to acquire this book, so I'll talk to everyone in a week or so. :P
love yall
-jill

Everyone seems to be posting what they're reading, listening to, etc. Well...I should be reading The Handmaid's Tale by Margaret Atwood, but that will have to wait for tomorrow. I'm currently hearing "The Flame Still Burns" hehe, cause I'm watching Still Crazy for the umpteenth time. As for other music of the moment, I'd have to say Rachmaninov. Seriously, I've been hearing that lately more than pop music...the CD in my player is my birthday CD, which reminds me, if a certain person wished to make me another one, and sign my yearbook while he was at it, I'd be quite happy. ^_^ I'm in my dorm room, with all my sheep and monkeys, and maybe one day I'll have a roommate. Oh, I finally used the film on my camera, so maybe when I get paid I'll get them developed and everyone can finally see my short hair (Drew and TJ). I must be tired, cause it took me quite awhile to decide if paid was really spelled that way and I wasn't just thinking of laid (I know, I'm begging for jokes) so I'd better head to bed; which, I noticed my time counter was hopelessly off, but I don't want to take the time to ponder it.
Oh, and isn't the background of this soooo me? I just need some cartoon monkeys and I'm set.
-jill

its pink!
Just as a side note, I miss my cat.
Love yall
-jill

So here we are, finally.
I bought donuts! At long last! Many of you have been hearing me rant over my cravings lately, and if you haven't, well, I've wanted donuts for a few weeks, at least. Hmmm, not much to say right now. My mom and Krista visited this weekend, thereby putting me out of the loop til Saturday afternoon, but it allowed me to catch up on tons of gossip today, which is always cool; in fact, I'm currently on the phone with Jackie now, gettin more. mwahaha. Oh, Jacob, I came outside to wave goodbye when you left, but you were already driving away, and I don't think you saw. Mike did, tho. Greg was sorta comatose, which he was off an on for most of the day. :P I blame it all on the males. :) I have no idea how to make this thing all personalized, so I'll be working on it in the coming weeks, but not next week, due to the Contemp. Novel class. :P It's hard to be eloquent while on the phone, so I'll write later!
Love yall
-jill