Now playing: Marilyn Manson, Tainted Love

My mind has gone on ridiculous mode. I have a very difficult test in a half hour that I have not studied for. I have not finished packing. My room is a mess. Yet here I sit, typing on a blog and very carefully picking out CDs to bring to Tennessee. My plane leaves this afternoon. Yes, I know I am crazy, but I suffered a small breakdown this morning right before test #1 when I couldn't find my Guster CD. I think I'm stressed.

Now I'm listening to NIN: Broken. Comfort music.

Guess I'll write more from Tennessee.

Now playing: The Dirty Dancing Soundtrack on Michelle's computer.

This past week has been sooooo hectic. Have I slept much? No! Will I get rest over the break? Probably not!, especially if the Omaha clan winds up coming. Last time they came was my senior year of high school. I had a huge paper due when I got back and wound up working on it the whole break, including one all-nighter, but that was all right, cause the rest of the family randomly stayed up all night as well, arguing over the presidential election that had just occurred and various other subjects. Sigh.

At any rate, there shall be no large paper for me over this break. I had a minor stroke over the one that's due later today last night. My original 4 1/2 page paper is now eight, due to my increased rambling. If I don't get a good grade this time, I will have no idea what I did wrong. Time shall tell. In the meantime, the paper is done, and the next one is due the Wednesday after Thanksgiving - plenty of time to do it after I get back.

I wish I had time to mention some of the stuff from the past weekend, and week, for that matter. I would highly recommend staying as far away from the new Bond movie as possible. My concert on Sunday went all right, not perfect, not terrible. Katie's never allowed to lecture on ho activities again. I bought warm fuzzy socks and a sweater.

Ok, off to class.

Now playing - Avril Lavigne, "I'm With You"

I'm definitely feeling warm and fuzzy right now.

Maybe it's cause I got complimented on my performance at orchestra today.
Maybe it's cause I just tutored Michelle and Adam in theory.
Maybe it's cause I went out with good friends to Rocky's tonight.
Maybe it's cause I'm wearing Katie's sweater.
Maybe it's cause it's cold outside, and my nice warm covers are only a few feet and a few minutes away.
Maybe...

I like the rain. It makes days like this afterward.

"What happened to your neck?"
"I met a vampire. With a tire iron." - Anthony

It's been a busy week. Concerts galore, homework, Michelle and Katie's ho activities... *cough*. We haven't even had time to watch The Gilmore Girls. Well, except for probably Jackie, who's been sick all day with the same thing that Michelle and others had had. I managed to survive the virus with minimal damage, though I did miss some class on Monday. I'm still not sure if that was caused by being sick or sleep deprived, though. Thankfully, I've been slowly increasing the amount of sleep I get every night. Go me! 180!

I've got my mother saying the phrase "ho activities." That is too funny.

I am sooooo ready for Thanksgiving break to get here. Almost a week to relax (well, maybe not), eat good food (most definitely) and generally get away from all the stress that's been going on around here (wooo!). There is the necessary evil of a plane trip, but hopefully it'll be alright. I'll bring a magazine.

Now playing: Harry Potter soundtrack.

There's something about the weather today that necessitates some John Williams. That wintry, Thanksgiving-Christmas-ish feeling. Once again, a night for snuggling.

I've decided I don't get visited nearly enough. Drew and Jen live relatively close. Josh and Jacob live reeeallly close. TJ and Denny...nah, there's still no excuse. :P Better come visit me soon, or you shall feel the wrath!

I had my jazz concert last night. That has to be the most chill I have ever been about a concert. So much so that I sort of almost forgot that I had one last night. :P Regardless, it was really fun, and tons of people were there and I "didn't screw up once!" I can't wait for more next semester.

Class is in a few minutes. This conversation is over.

"It all starts with a catalyst - a seed, if you will..."

I need to be asleep right now, as I've had one hour of sleep in the past more than 24 hours. Still, I feel like I'll miss something. Like my bed being violated. :P Sigh. Michelle has soooooo started a war.

It's been a long weekend. Saw American Beauty again last night. I'd forgotten what a spectacular movie it can be. It was an interesting mix; half the people in the room had seen the movie many times before and were quietly analyzing it, and the other half were seeing it for the first time. I hope they get that film club going. And Cara provided me with additional American Beauty analysis from her film class, so we're all going to watch it again. But not tonight.

So I'm making decisions, for better or for worse. No turning back now. Kind of freeing.

The other night I spent some of it on the bottom of a closet. I have a feeling that won't be happening anymore. No more hiding, literally or figuratively.

I'm liking the clarity.

Now playing: Air - All I Need

The changing weather is driving everyone crazy, and making everyone sick. It needs to just get cold and stay that way. *Pout pout* Michelle is sick; everyone feels in general like crap; I've become paranoid and am even drinking orange juice. I'm a good girl I am. Still, I feel a little more confident since I got the flu shot. Woo woo. :) And the weather was beautiful last night. Definite snuggling weather. Just me and my nice warm bed, and sleep. :) It's getting harder and harder to drag myself out of bed every day.

Of course, this couldn't possibly be due to the lack of sleep I've been getting lately. I got to bed at an early 2-something - not bad for me lately. Jackie's roommate is worse - we had to set a curfew for her last night, cause she's been working herself half to death. Sadly, Bill wasn't able to enforce this curfew, and Odile got home at 3:30 instead of 2:30. When Bill wakes up, he's gonna be in trouble. Muahahaha.

My midday was yesterday. It went alright - could have been much better; naturally, our quartet screwed up on little things that we hadn't previously. Sigh. Still, I suppose that's the way these things go. And though I was embarrassed a bit, I was glad that a lot of people showed up to support and all that. And of course my day was made drastically better cause Norito's midday was Chopin's 3rd Ballade. Sigh. Check check. And Jackie and Casey brought me to Rocky's, and Jackie bought me Checker's...I have nice friends. :)

I'm ready for it to be winter. I'm ready for the cold, fresh air and the happy Christmas-y feeling and feeling excited. And the music. And the hot chocolate. And the snuggling.

Now playing: we're back to the Jamiroquai.

I am once again going on only a few hours of sleep. And by a few, I really mean a few. Sigh. I was literally headed to bed last night when so many random escapades occurred. I really must start carrying around a camera to document some of this. Which reminds me, I need to develop my Halloween film.

The Strongbad email this week is hilarious. It's soooo every collegeish, but all the more for Rollins. Go see it. But I can't be bothered to be like Alan to actually link it, so be resourceful, or go to his site at www.strandedecho.com. Which also reminds me, I must link that some day. But I'm lazy. I suppose I could check that off of my own list.

The question now becomes, do I go to work study and fall asleep there, or stay here? I really want to sleep some more, but it's looking like that won't happen, cause everyone else who stayed up til 5 has just gone off to class. Sigh. But I'm sleeeepy...

"Circles...I'm turnin circles..."

Now playing: Bill's special edition of Thriller.

Reminds me of listening to the actual album when I was younger. Still very very good music, and right in line with what I've been listening to lately. Mellowish, and funkish, and prettyish. :)

I could be so ticked off at so many things today. But it's been a mellow, relaxing day, and even though I have horn ensemble later, it's okie, cause I'm in a good mood. And determined to get to bed before two tonight. I'm puttin both feet down, if you will.

Remind me some day to put down the Bill-and-Nate theory of Neo-feminism. It's quite silly, and basically boils down to clarity and laundry. In other words, if you're a lazy guy, this could work for you. Assuming you could find a chick who could stand for it, which of course won't happen...

I'm gonna wander around and talk to people before horn ensemble.

It's still not cold enough, but the sunlight has switched to winter slant. Yes, it has.

I never seem to get around to being online on the weekends anymore. Too much stuff happens. And I wind up staying up til 5 in the morning, and then sleeping in til two, unless I happen to have to get up at 7, and then I operate for a day on two hours of sleep. Sigh. Still, it was a fun weekend. And I lost miserably at Monopoly, but everything's...gonna be fine. :)

My theory class was canceled this morning. This means I got to sleep in til noon. Allow a brief pause here for the *sleeping in til noon* dance. I feel much better than I did last night. And I got incredulous looks from Jackie and Brad when I stumbled in at noon, right before they were headed off to class. Michelle and Anthony and I went to lunch and hung out for an hour in the grill...it's been a very non-stressful day. Which is good, cause the rest is gonna be full of rehearsals as usual.

The Halloween party was a success, I think. Everyone actually came in costume, making me totally happy, and we played Celebrity...well, most of us did. :P This reminds me: I must, must talk to Saul. The irony of certain things must be shared.

Eep! Philosophy class!